I was a really shy kid and i used to be afraid of everything: fire, dogs, heights, the ocean, bugs, robbers, darkness and many other things. I was especially afraid of horror movies, it took me too long (it was really late) to realize and accept that those stories were all fake.
I grew up in the country. There were many bees and other flying insects, they loved to bite me and no other one: i was bitten by bugs almost everyday of my childhood. I can't let go of that fear. I love animals, but i can't get close to bees and wasps. I knew, later, that spiders liked to eat flying insects. Today i love spiders, i had a few as pets, i like them to walk on my hands. I hate when they appear on my face with no warming though.
We used to have really happy holidays, with a huge family together on Christmas, but, facing Santa Claus on Christmas eve, it freaked me out to think about it. If you were a child: Wouldn't you be afraid to meet a really fat old stranger in your house, in the middle of the dark?
Anyway, i grew up and i embraced my fears. I started to enjoy some pain and feelings i used to run away from. I started to love the dark, for example, i went to places my cousins and friends were so afraid of getting at night. I found peace in those places.
When you realize that you could die any day, you stop fearing death. And your fear centers in other stuff like "What would happen to my dear ones if i die today?", "What have i done in my life?", "What if i loose my loved ones?", "What if the world is based on lies and hate?", "What if i'm alone in the universe and nothing has sense?", "What if i'm not good enough for this world ?" or "What if i'm not good enough for this person?", etc...
One last thing... I can't fully enjoy roller-coasters and the thought of getting on an airplane may help me pee. Hahaha!
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